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Oh shit people finally found my glee fic

 That's...somehow really bizarre for me, I'm not even going to lie.

But I guess I will probably keep writing Glee just because it seems like it's all I can write these days

I guess I could start doing episode reviews

But they would mostly be like "SHUT UP SHUE GO AWAY FINN ESPECIALLY GO AWAY RACHEL THAT'S A TERRIBLE THING TO SAY GLEE YOU SUCK Hi Mercedes I love you" and just rotate "Mercedes" for Kurt, Puck, Tina, Mike, Lauren, Blaine....wait the last one is a lie, because every time Blaine comes on screen I just end up yelling WHY IS YOUR ACTING SO TERRIBLE

Fic: A Long Road Ahead (2/2)

The Long Road Ahead
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Blaine + his family, Blaine/Kurt
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Realistic depictions of racism and abusive relationships.
Summary: The story of Blaine’s mother and why Blaine doesn’t call himself Pinoy.

Part 1

Terrance only cares about what's easier for him.Collapse )Nasa dugo niyaTerrance only cares about what's easier for him.Collapse )Mahiya ka ngaTerrance only cares about what's easier for him.Collapse )

Fic: A Long Road Ahead (1/2)

I know, I'm surprised too. Turns out that despite horrible, horrible writing and lots and lots of -isms, the characters can still hook you in and keep you there even as you yell at your TV about how much you hate Mr. Shue.

Although this might be one of the most depressing fics I've ever written. So be warned.

The Long Road Ahead
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Blaine + his family, Blaine/Kurt
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Realistic depictions of racism and abusive relationships.

Summary: The story of Blaine’s mother and why Blaine doesn’t call himself Pinoy.

Notes: This story started when Darren Criss talked about being hapa and Pinoy. I knew that Glee would probably not let Blaine be either, but the thought of Blaine’s mother stayed with me. Why would Blaine not think of himself as Pinoy? What would his home be like, if he had a Filipina mother who wasn’t allowed to be Filipina? What would her story be? This grew out of that, and out of thoughts on colonialism, imperialism, racism, and abuse in interracial and intercultural relationships.

You may notice that there are no historical landmarks to date this story -- i.e., I don’t discuss Mount Pinatubo erupting. I did this because as a non-Filipino, I was drawing on research of the Philippines I’d done, but I could not know what it was like to live that culture or that moment. Additionally, I was drawing on my own experiences and observations for the bulk of this fic, and while I thought I could do justice to the experiences of a first generation immigrant married to a white man raising a biracial, white-looking queer child, I did not think I could do justice to the experience of Filipinos when Mt. Pinatubo erupted. Because I didn’t think I could do it right, I decided not to co-opt the narrative at all.

Finally, the title of this fic comes from an essay in the book Pinay Power: Peminist Critical Theory, a book that was invaluable in understanding the experiences of Pinay women. It seemed fitting because both immigrants and victims of abuse always have a long road ahead of them. If anyone would like a full list of the books I read to write this, drop me a line.

Read more...Collapse )Nasa dugo niyaRead more...Collapse )Mahiya ka ngaRead more...Collapse )

My Manifesto

I was reading a book called "Cunt," which suggested that everyone write their own manifestos to help them remember how much they are worth. This is mine. I don't remember writing it, but it still is my manifesto. I'm sure it will grow, but it still is my manifesto.

My hands are strong and capable, and my wrists break bangles.Collapse )

WHAT

WHAT THE HELL. THIS IS SO FUCKING RACIST I DON'T EVEN HAVE WORDS FOR IT. I CAN'T EVEN TURN OFF MY CAPSLOCK FOR THIS--I AM CHOKING WITH RAGE.

Joel Stein thinks that Indian food is spicy and that we should all be deported for it--just like Arizonains, because they're the picture of sanity.

I used to read Time magazine in two places--doctor's offices and all the sitting rooms of my Indian aunties and uncles. Excuse me while I try to make sure that I now only read Time magazine in one place.

Getting my priorities straight.

Okay, so Gail Simone, the author of Birds of Prey emailed me, and now I'm reading like every BoP issue I can get my hands on so that I can have evidence to back me up when I email her back, and I need to write about that when it happens and I still haven't posted about how the navjote and wedding went, or how much I love Chicago, but none of that is as important as THIS.

It's from mattbomerfan.com/gallery/displayimage.php?album=97&pos=6

You guys, I have found my style icon. Can I be Neal Caffery have every outfit that Neal Caffery (Matt Bomer) wears on White Collar? I LOVE HIS CLOTHES SO MUCH. Seriously. Here, have another picture.
 
Many more drool-worthy suits and shirts and sweaters after the cutCollapse )

I cannot find a still of the outfit he wears in the second episode, but it has a lavender shirt with the sleeves rolled, a vest, a tie, and a fedora. TELL ME THAT DOES NOT SOUND BEAUTIFULLY DYKEY.

Comics are breaking my heart

ETA: I had planned on putting up a follow up post about the conversations I've been having with Gail Simone, but I have to wait for a while. We are having a conversation, and something is happening. I'm still not enthusiastic about how Simone responds to criticism, but she gave me a chance to really change something in comics, and I'd like to follow that as long as I can. I promise full disclosure (hopefully) soon.

In the meantime, this keeps getting attention, so I'd like to clarify a point. When I reread Birds of Prey, I realized that I was wrong--not all villains in Birds of Prey are Asian/Middle Eastern. Its just that all the Asian/Middle Eastern characters are villains, or at the very least, not heroes. Most of the villains in BoP are white, but since white men are heroes in pretty much every other DC comic, that doesn't really mean much for them. However, there are almost no Asians in DC comics that aren't dead, evil, or disappeared, every representation counts.

The shine has officially come off of loving comics for me.

I always wanted to love comics, and for a very long time, I didn't because it wasn't cool, and I was terrified of not being cool. And then I read comics secretly but I didn't have anyone to talk to about them. All the comic-loving people I knew were so over the top that I couldn't break through. I didn't know enough about them, I didn't care enough about them, I was a little scared by how much these people's lives revolved around comics.

This year was the first time that I ever really let myself fall in love with comic books. Meeting falco_conlon was like finding a sister in terms of fandom and comics geekery. Finally I had someone to make jokes with, to analyze comics with, to sqee over awesome things and be mad over infuriating things. And I totally and completely fell in love with comics.

And now I feel like someone just punched me in the gut.

Spoilers for Birds of Prey #2Collapse )

I think I'm done with comics for a while. Maybe something will come along to make me change my mind, but...somehow I don't think so. And that's so sad.

Dilemmas on Iron Man 2 and other sequels.

I'm having a hard time deciding if I want to go see Iron Man 2 this summer or not. It looks like a big, fun, action packed movie that has very little plot and lots of explosions, and douchey superheroes. So basically, my kind of movie.

But I'm really, really bothered by the producers replacing Terrance Howard with Don Cheadle. I mean, I've heard that Don Cheadle does a fantastic job, and is much more believable as an Air Force whatever, and I didn't particularly enjoy Terrance Howard in Iron Man. And I love Don Cheadle. So you would think that I would be fine with this replacement, but what sticks in my throat is the assumption that one black man playing the same character can easily replace another black man in a sequel.

Don Cheadle and Terrance Howard look nothing alike. Yet somehow we are supposed to believe that they are the same character. Its a common practice--but only with people of color and women. We never see a white man with a main role being replaced in a sequel by a totally different looking white man. Heck, we never see them being replaced period! But somehow people of color and women are always being replaced come sequel time. It happened when Maggie Gyllenhaal replaced Katie Holmes in The Dark Knight and its happened in Iron Man 2.

There's an assumption there that really ticks me off. Besides this idea lurking below the surface of "all black people look the same," the most offensive thing I get from these casting choices is that non-white, non-male actors are there to fill a PC niche. It doesn't actually matter what they look like, whether they can act, what they sound like; all that matters is that someone can check "black character" or "woman" off a "Diversity" checklist. When I see Don Cheadle playing Rhodey instead of Terrance Howard, the only thing that I can think is that we're not supposed to care who plays the role as long as they fill their major function: being black. The actual actors are unimportant. It only matters that there is one black man in the film. He can be anyone. People aren't supposed to notice or care. Non-white non-male actors are interchangable.

And in the end it doesn't matter that Don Cheadle and Maggie Gyllendhaal are much better actors than the people they're replacing, or that Terrance Howard was supposedly replaced because he was a nightmare on set and didn't want to take a pay cut. They're still being treated as interchangable. There's no explaination about why Rhodey looks totally different than he did one movie ago. We're just supposed to assume that he's the same person, despite being played by two very different people. And this, frankly, just reinforces the notion of "all black people look the same" and "minorities are all alike." We're not supposed to care who plays the black man, or the (white) woman, or the black woman, or the Asian man, as long as there's somebody there. And if they are played by someone different, its okay, because we're not supposed to notice, because these aren't actors. They're diversity pieces. And as long as the movie has one, it'll be okay.

But in the end I don't know whether not seeing Iron Man 2 will actually help anything. I do want to support Don Cheadle, and I don't think this will change with me not buying a ticket. So I'm raising my voice and hoping that maybe pointing out the problems with casting one black man to replace another black man will make more of a difference than just not seeing it.

If anyone can think of a movie sequel where a white man in a large supporting cast role was replaced with no in-film explaination--let me know in the comments. I just can't think of any.

P.S. Someday I will write about my personal life. But it probably won't be this week.

ARGH

So in addition to finding out yesterday that my cousin has leukemia and that the lead actress in the play I'm ASMing for quit, I just got a credit card bill that says that my last check never found them and I now have a huge balance on my card.

My weekend can start getting better starting...now. Please.

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